Can you feel the beat of my life?

friends and fellow strangers who happen to pass by my blog, I have moved to tumblr, which provides better theme and customisability. Interface is also nicer than wordpress.

think of it as a new change to a new chapter in life, like how everyone makes new year resolutions

the new address is here: http://alexlimkw.tumblr.com/

hopefully there will be less vulgarities and rashness.

cheers

i just recieved the rejection letter from tri-ace. there goes my first choice.

blah blah blah… your skills and experience does not fit the current position we have…. blah blah blah

so does this mean that there is no more modeller/animator position or does it mean my skills are not up to par with the rest of the world. i think i’m just not good enough to take on the world now. i feel so seriously fucked from this letter. the more i think about it, the more shitty i feel.

so now what? my brain is in a total mess and i can’t think properly. so do i wait for the 28 english teaching job in japan application or do i start looking seriously for jobs in SG. is it also time to start pumping out more “game quality” portfolio? now that i look back at my current portfolio, it looks so student-ish and bad and if you ask me now, i feel quite ashamed to say I did those.

the curvy road branches out so much i can’t even see the end point now.

fucking burning some wtf shit and the smoke they produce is polluting the whole area around them. making my father and sister have difficulty breathing. calling to the authorities a few times and that family still continues to burn.

today, the great me finally cannot take it down any longer so I went out to her house and fucked/threatened her with some nice and polite language.

28 Jalan Lanjut, you better watch out or you might just get a lawyer’s letter from me.

playing the piano for 1 hour.

too long never train my muscle lost its memory and now need to slowly build it back up. i totally forgot how to open melodies of life LoL.

the mental fatigue, i can feel it.

i will be become a piano student

yes you never see wrongly, i will become a piano student (in my own house of course) while i wait for those slowmos around the globe to reply back to my application.

i really hate waiting. it makes you waste your life away doing needless things.

on a side note, everything stops after the first sentence. something is wrong somewhere. but i dunno what is wrong nor how to fix it. if you know the answer please kindly tell me

been 3 weeks since i last came back, and i’ve not done anything really life changing or mind blowing or even to proceed on with life. so far the only thing i’ve done is:

• write up my resume and clean up my portfolio followed by sending them out to a few companies
• played wow for 1 week
• fixed up my room

results were just released. i’ve achieved nothing really great or bad or should i just say its average. graduation is held on 30 march 2010 but its too late for me. I don’t think i will be able to attend it so can someone plan a pre-grad party/outing/gathering for me? not that i’m hoping for too much.

i think its really time to start working some part time jobs and make money to buy myself a digital piano so i can continue my practise. my fingers are losing the memories of the notes. and so while i work, i can wait for my transcript to apply for oversea jobs and then wait even longer for a reply. godly crap why do we always have to wait and wait and wait.

and even now, im waiting for my application reply from tri-ace. next wednesday will mark the 3rd week i sent out my application to them. then plus postage time i’m expecting a reply by the 4th week. hopefully it goes well.

when  they tell you they are not a kid anymore, i just can’t help feeling pissed off, irritated and angry. sometimes i just want to give them a good hard slap and wake them up form their beautiful slumber.

you want to become an adult? receive my slap and wake up to the real world

and so damn tired

plus 30 mins. i cant believe it. I’ve survived for 3.5 years in australia and in 24 hours time, i will be on the plane back to sg. although i always complain about how i hate the place here, i would also like to thank this place. because this place, is the place which made me think of what i really want to do and how i should go about planning for my future. maybe its a love hate relationship, although i really hate the kids here and its PURE HATE AND RAGE.

i’ve finished cleaning up my portfolio to the best of my ability already and its ready to be presented to prospective employers. the resumes and cover letter are still 80% done, still missing out on some important information like contact number (which i dun have now) and some past details which i forgot, need to go back home and dig out everything.

i found a job opening in Tri-Ace japan and i’m going to apply for a modeler/animator job as soon as i get my resume ready. its like a god send opportunity!!! this kind of chances don’t come often and don’t come knocking at your door! really, seek and you shall find. and if i ever get applied, my life motto of GUTS & DETERMINATION will also be proven true.

meanwhile, i’m still looking for other jobs in japan’s game industry, but it seems like those game companies don’t have an employment page on their site. wtf??? still trying my best to dig them out though. of coz i’m not doing to put all my eggs into one basket, i’ve got a few companies in SG which i’m interested in. will also be applying for them as well. but Tri-Ace holds the utmost priority!

24 hours more. can’t describe the excitement i could give everyone a hug or 2.

today will mark the day of the end of my current chapter in life. tomorrow will be the start of the next

3.5 years in australia, who knows how many assignments i’ve handed in, and i’ve just handed in my last piece of work which i did in australia. ITS ALL OVER!!!

so introducing my last piece of work which i named [chibi PARA]. please dun luff at my nonsensical naming

not so much work put into compared to the last piece but still quite alot of work, the second last piece which has no named so i just conveniently gave it the name of the song Ievan Polkka (hatsune miku ver)

and the forth piece which was completed the first half of this semester, [gundam by my balcony]. its nothing really fancy because it was simply an assignment to merge 3D into real life video footage.

im not posting up the third one because its really, its a 3D animation of a scene from a movie called the princess bride or something. no sound no background no nothing. its just plain character animation. might be useful to use in portfolio but not for general viewing lol

not the next hurdle!!! writing a resume, cover letter and promoting my portfolio. this is harder than i expected after some research.